I'll just say I have been really badly depressed for a long while, going through the daily stuff and not actually taking much notice of anything.
I've had to finish working, too many injuries, the early starts and hours haven't helped, so I retired last April. It hasn't been easy with the cut in income going onto Superannuation and no other income.
I broke 4 ribs last August, in all honesty dying would have been preferable. I was a month on Tramadol, which is effective, as well as highly addictive. Along with the paranoia it causes as well.
Then Spencer knocked me over and I damaged my shoulder which has taken a while to recover from. Nothing broken, but it froze the muscles and tendons requiring a fair bit of physio to free it up, along with dislocating my neck. One of those years to forget.
Tuffy had a malignant lump removed off his chest, then Spencer developed a lump, thankfully benign, but we had it removed anyway.
Thinking that was all, I started to relax when I found another small lump on Tuffys' hip. That was another malignant tissue, operated on and back home. But, with the position of the cut, he kept ripping the stitches when he moved, so after 2 attempts to restitch it, the Vet Clinic offered to keep him there in confinement till the wound healed. He was in there for a month, I am just thankful the Clinic staff donated their time, and all I had was the bill for the medicine. All in all, it rolled up to $3,700.
I've got Lupus back in both hands, peeling skin, burning feeling as the nerves in my hands go berserk, a lot of small cuts appearing and the tips of my fingers have lost all sense of touch and feel like thin cardboard.
The house is just a shambles, run out of money, time, interest. I'm still deciding whether to try and stay here, or hit the bank up for an improvement loan, get everything fixed and sell. Then find somewhere smaller in house size but still with some land attached. I was considering buying a mobile home/housebus but my Doctor promptly scotched that idea. As she pointed out, I have MS, my blood pressure is only kept in control with medication, I have macular degeneration in one eye, and on and on it goes. She did threaten to have my Drivers licence cancelled on medical grounds if she thought I would be driving some 10 tonne mobile home.
God what a tale of woe.
Oh, and I ripped my AC Ligament in my knee as well a month ago. I've managed to avoid surgery so far, wearing a fairly stiff knee support all the time to keep it in place. So far ok, I can't walk too far, which is annoying with Tuffy and Spencer both needing a lot of exercise.
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