For the past 2 1/2 years I have been helping a lady get out of, and over an abusive violent relationship. To say it has been an emotional strain on me, and also at times hazardous is close. I have had the wheelnuts removed from my vehicle, had a wheel come off on a gravel road that put me into the ditch on the side of a rather steep hill, been assaulted, threatened.
I have helped her overcome a severe alcohol addiction, because as she said, it didn't hurt as much if she was drunk when she was hit.
Emotionally, once she sobered up, got focused, had a forward plan for herself and her sons, I fell in love with her.
Unfortunately, as in all things, she wanted to keep me as her friend and mentor, while she returned to drinking and picking up men in the local hotel. That was never going to work, so I have made the decision that I can only help people as far as they want to go.
I've spent the last 2 months re-evaluating my life, what I want to do, why did I move here, where I want to be.
I'm clearing my house out of all the things that yes, I could do, but in reality I don't physically have the time to do everything. Mums' industrial sewing machine I am giving on permanent loan to an artist in Takaka, Moana Lee, http://www.moana-lee.co.nz/diary , she is brilliant, talented, and going to make better use of it than I ever will. despite the intentions I had, I know it will just be another dust gatherer while what I really want to do also sits on the wayside.
I started to convert the spare kitchen into a darkroom when I moved here, then got distracted, I have all the equipment, but my involvement with the lady mentioned above took my time, resources away.
That is now my main focus, I have a lady who was, and always will be, my favourite model coming to stay for 2 weeks in June, the locations available here in Golden bay have been in my mind since I moved here.
The scenery, mountains, beaches, rivers have always bought me back here, I haven't posted many pics in here of Golden Bay, until I got the firefox/blogger situation resolved, it has caused me more frustration then anything.
I intend to get back into printng and exhibiting, yes, I know everything is digital today. But a really good print, on museum quality paper, still sells. Wish me luck :)
These pics are from Labyrinth Rocks Park in Takaka
I'll start posting and writing more now that my life has returned to normal. Well, as normal as my life ever is.
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